My Dear Self,
It’s been years that I knew I didn’t know who you are. You are not used to be like this back then. Your emotions sometimes are taking control over my thinkings, and this led to my feeling inside my heart. This is what happen and according to T. Harv Eker, this would produce undesirable actions which would yield un-intended results from my surroundings. Once that happen, the un-desirable thinkings would spread its negativity to my surroundings. This is bad.
I have realized since we were a teen though, that we are a ‘unique’ person, in the sense that, we have ego and fire and fuel to fight to get our desired things. Though it’s not that bad, the side effect is that……………. okay, I don’t know how I should put it, it’s….like…. whatever thing that originally didn’t ignite our desire or ego to get it or are not true, upon influences from my surroundings, these things upon time, would be absorbed into our mind and ‘finally’ could turn into something that ‘transform’ into a ‘true’ thing or a desire thing to get, with our minds that had already been programmed to pursue things, this would produce unintended feelings and the unintended consequent behaviours or actions. And if these things conflict with my surroundings, I’m……
We are not an outspoken guy, therefore, I seldom spoke out our feelings. We are not that kind. Therefore, I tend to think and feel what others may think about us quietly. That’s why, some might say, we’re sensitive. That’s the way we are, I guess, despite that, I know we dun have any hard feelings towards anybody. That’s why I still spoke to anyone today, if you notice.
That’s why, after observing for some time, I perceive that, something might be wrong, ppl are less cheerful towards us, and there’s nothing I should question them back what’s wrong. I’m starting to retard ourself from the society for a bit. I realized it’s not wise. But hey, that’s the way ppl are, aren’t they. Like T. Harv Eker himself put it, our personal thoughts lead to our personal feelings, and our feelings would lead to our ‘funny’ actions, which produce the results.
Think I dun need to further elaborate what’s wrong. Just let it gone with the wind. Best is to be a better us in the future. I won’t look back at what has happened. University life is good nonetheless. We learnt a lot from my circles of friends and I contribute something hopefully for them. Life is about giving and taking.
My Dear Self
This ain’t our true self. You let so many people down and I feel so bad. To all those friends, I felt terrible for them and I think I would like to offer our sincere apology if we ever hurt anybody’s feelings.
I’m currently re-programming back whatever is wrong in our mind; for a better future, for a better world, for a better life. They are OUR FUTURE, OUR WORLD and OUR LIFE.
